One Week

I am down four pounds... Yay!
I am trying to figure out my relationship with food, and when I say "food" I think I really mean treats... or maybe food.  I don't know.
The kids have a piano recital coming up and they were to choose a western song to play, Paige picked "You Are My Sunshine".  I tear up every time.  It reminds me of Grandma Heap.  I miss her.  Then I just want to go and eat a cupcake... an orange JUST doesn't cut it.  What is wrong with me?

I guess we'll figure it out later... probably much later, like after we die we'll know what is wrong with all of us...  but for now, I'll go eat my orange.

I hope the rest of you are having a good week!
Love ya!

Back Again!!

I got a scale for Christmas (ours broke quite a while ago). 
It's about a number now.
I paid $20 for a neighborhood Biggest Loser... it starts Jan 12.  I'm starting Jan 1.
I keep finding the 20-some-odd pounds I lose every time.  I think maybe this time?  YES!  For sure, this time I will keep it off!! :)
Any of you sisters/in-laws/cousins/friends/strangers want to join this year??
My plan -
1.  No soda's - Diet or otherwise. I did a little water challenge a few weeks ago and since then I have had three 32 oz. Diet Dr. Peppers and a couple of 12 oz. cans.  (I could EASILY down that much in a single day... so, this is pretty big!) I will replace the soda with WATER... I will drink 8 to 10 glasses of water every dang day.
2.  Track my food intake - I guess it will be kind of like Weight Watchers but without points.  The program has changed from when I did it back in 2008... I don't want to sign up again.  I want to lose 50 pounds (That is DOUBLE what I lost last time, plus a couple of pounds) by June (we're going to California for a week) and my little "Lose It" app I downloaded says to do that I can have 1,327 calories per day.  If I exercise I get more!!  Woo HOO!!
3.  Exercise - Like Daily. Except Sunday.  I just printed this and will be hanging on my fridge, "Food Is The Most Abused Anxiety Drug. Exercise Is The Most Underutilized Antidepressant."  Do I believe it?  No, not really.  I don't FEEL a whole lot better after I have exercised, but - I realize I need it.  Even if it's 10 minutes of pushups/sit-ups/lunges... I will intentionally MOVE my body.  I also believe I'm very much an emotional eater... and any emotion will do.  I eat when I feel happy, sad, mad, nervous, anxious, depressed, overwhelmed, overscheduled, bored, defiant, social or even nothing at all.  My treat of choice - chips and soda... mmmmm.
I will weigh in every Thursday (because it's Jan 1 and I'm like that).  I'm hoping to have lost at least 3 pounds since last Thursday!  I had better... because depriving myself of soda HAS to be worth it!!
I love you ladies! I want us to be here and healthy for a very long long time!
Good Luck!

First Weigh In 2014

I don't want this to be so much about "weight" and "numbers" as I want it to be about "feelings" and "health"...
But, how do I measure that?
The Scale... Blah!!
First Week:  minus 2 pounds.

Not as big as last time first weigh in... but, I only changed a couple of things this past week so I'll take it.

Did I mention I'm an emotional eater?  Well, I am.  This week has been full of stress, excitement, fear, anxiety, relief, happiness etc.  I eat for all of those special occasions.  Yay Me!

Here's to next week!  Maybe I'll work out a time or two?  Eh... maybe not.
Love you guys!

Who's In This Year??

I sure am!

I have slowly and carefully added on nearly each and every pound I lost 2 years ago.


So, starting January 1...  I will commit to losing the same weight that keeps finding me... probably not for good. (Where's the fun in that???)

Time to "do it" again.  Time to "diet".  Time to "exercise". Time to lose my freaking mind.  Who's with me?

Fine. I get it.

I went to the doctor's office yesterday - just for a routine exam and new birth control prescription since I had switched insurance at the beginning of the year. When I was in the waiting room filling out forms, I came across this question:

Do you exercise regularly?

Um, no, I do not. So that's what I put. No. Negative. Nada. Honestly, I didn't think twice about my answer. Not a big deal, right?

When I got into the exam room, however, my doctor immediately zeroed in on that answer. The conversation went something like this:

"You don't exercise?"
"No, not really."
"Why not?"
"Well, I get up for work really early and it's pretty late when I get home. I don't feel like I have a ton of time for exercising."
"But it's really important."
"I know. I should be better. I am going to get a guest pass to the Stanford gym today."
"Well, that's good. Make sure you use it. You really need to exercise."

Okay, lady, I get it. I need to exercise. I am a gross couch-potato slug who just wants to curl up with a good book and some hot chocolate. As I left the office, her parting words were, "Have fun on your day off of work....make sure you exercise!"

Those not-so-gentle reminders coupled with my appointment weigh-in (definitely more than my driver's license weight...ha) finally motivated me to get off my butt today. I spent about 40 minutes doing some circuit exercises and then ran a mile and a half. It wasn't anything big, but hopefully enough to get Dr. Wong off of my back. :)

I Think I Need This To Keep Me On Track.

So, I got on the scale today for the first time in months...

YIKES!!!

I lost 22ish pounds... and I've gained 9 back.

GROSS!!!

I will be signing up for Sweaty Chix this week... I think that's the sort of exercise I like and that I will actually stick to.  I don't like the gym.  I really tried and I feel like I gave it a good effort.  I even checked out a DIFFERENT gym - I walked in and you know what???  It's STILL a gym!  Blah!

How is everyone else doing?

Hey Guys...

So today I ran (jogged) for the first time since turning the WHOPPING 4 - 0 and you know what?  I kicked butt!!
I ran (jogged 5.0 mph) for 30 minutes - I think it was around 2.5 miles... then I walked a bit.  I bumped it up to 5.0 mph and finished it out.  All total -



wait for it...




3 miles in THIRTY-EIGHT minutes.

I lost a couple of pounds since last month - but still not down to my July 1 weight.  And you know what?? I am just fine.  I eat what I want, when I want and exercise to maintain, I guess??

I hope you are all doing great things too!!